Today I fell in love again. I have decided to document love. I have decided to give love my full attention. They say you cannot survive on love alone. I say at this moment in time i'm going to give it a damn good try.
Lance – at Whole Foods. I walked down to the store to pick up peanut butter cups (vegan, non-gmo and perfect if you haven't slept properly since September). He helped me count out the change in my purse thats been confusing me for months. He was so patient, so kind. He explained each coin, handed me back a canadian coin, cointed out 1cents and swapped it all to make it more manageable. Lance is Puerto-rican by way of Conneticut, now of course living in the Bay Area. He apologised for feeling like he took too long to look up a yellow pepper. I thought....it was less than one minute....?
On the walk home I looked up at the crescent waning moon. It was perfect. You couldn't have drawn it any more perfectly. I knew that a chapter of my life just closed. And the next one opened.
These are documentations on love. How much love can I notice in a day. I have decided to work on my stamina for love. I have decided that it is worth everything I have. I rise at 6am, I sleep by 10.30. This is hours of exploration. I will document it here. This is a journal. This is a diary of love. This is documentation and evidentiary proof on the existance and tangiablity of love.
Today I watched a documentary about science. It made me think of faith. It made me think of fascination and all we do not know. It made me realise that my work has always been about this and now I need to give love the integrity it deserves. And find a way to speak it.
“If you could play love
what sound would it make?
Would we be singing to the same melody?
Would it sing to you at all?
If love could play you?
What would you sing?
And who would you sing it to?
If you could speak love?
How would you say it?
Or, can it only be felt?
If you could hold love,
where would you touch her?
And how long, do you think, you could hold on.
If you have known love, then know it.
Know what it looks like,
what it sounds like.
And learn how to play it.”